a beginning

At the end of the day the only person I can trust and depend on is myself. The most important lesson that I have learnt thus far in my life is that you shouldn’t expect too much or better yet, expect nothing at all.

Expectations lead to two things and two things only, disappointment and resentment.

Yet despite knowing this, I set myself up for disappointment time after time.

What is my life.

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→ 01 Jan 12 at 6 pm

thirty.

Happy New Year!

It’s so bizarre to think that it’s already 2012 when I still remember the early beginnings of 2011 like it was just yesterday.

However, despite time passing far too quickly I’m grateful for the new year and everything it represents. 2011 wasn’t a fantastic year for me so I’m hoping that 2012 will be a much much better year filled with more joy and laughter than I know what to do with.

I’ve written up a list of new year resolutions, nothing terribly dramatic or personal, just a few guidelines that hopefully will lead to a better and happier me.

All in all, 2012 is kind of like a shining beacon of hope. Don’t let me down!

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→ 12 Dec 11 at 11 pm twenty nine.

I wish happiness was as simple as a choice, a split decision you make that changes your life in mysterious and wonderful ways for the better but it’s not, at least not for me. It’s always so elusive, just slightly out of my reach and now I’m tired. Tired as fuck. Sick and tired. Tired of crying myself to bed every night. Tired tired tired. So tired I would just like to sleep for the rest of my life. How I wish I could.
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twenty nine.
I wish happiness was as simple as a choice, a split decision you make that changes your life in mysterious and wonderful ways for the better but it’s not, at least not for me. It’s always so elusive, just slightly out of my reach and now I’m tired. Tired as fuck. Sick and tired. Tired of crying myself to bed every night. Tired tired tired. So tired I would just like to sleep for the rest of my life. How I wish I could.

→ 04 Dec 11 at 10 pm

twenty eight.

My eyes feel heavy with unshed tears. It wasn’t the best day today but neither was it the worst. I just feel so disappointed, disgruntled and angry at myself for so many things that I can’t even begin to explain.

Need to settle in with a sad movie or book and bawl my eyes out for a little bit I think.

Good night.

→ 24 Nov 11 at 6 pm

twenty seven.

NOT IMPRESSED. I knew this was going to happen. People suck!

→ 20 Nov 11 at 7 pm

twenty six.

Sometimes you make it so hard for me to like you…

→ 14 Nov 11 at 10 pm

twenty five.

People make me sad. People make me angry. People rarely make me happy.

What does this say about me?